Some days you just feel depressed, no particular reasons, you just do. Relationships everywhere, it's like, just when I broke up, everyone came into a relationship; not that I have a problem with them coming in a relationship(actually I'm very happy) but it sucks when you are the only single guy.
More appropriately it sucks when you don't have a go-to person, so I just have to keep things to myself. Even though I have good friends to tell these things to but it just doesn't feel right to bother people. You know sometimes getting a text that says "Hi! How are you?" feels great but it's very rare that I get this kind of a message, I guess a go-to person always has to be the one to ask. Showing people that you care mean a lot to them because for them because then they know that there is someone, doesn't matter even if it's an acquaintance, who actually knows that you are there.
You know when you have that one person in your life that you know who will always be there, listen to whatever you have to say, never take things the wrong way and understands you. I'm not talking about a girlfriend or a boyfriend, I'm talking about your go-to person.
Everyone has one, at least I thought I had one. For me, I've always been the go-to person for my friends and frankly I'm comfortable being that guy but when your friends don't respect that you were that person for them, it really hurts. This happened to me today, turns out I was too irritating. Yeah! I guess it doesn't matter now, whatever I say is just words from a guy's mouth whose life is a 'natak', who doesn't have anything going for him in his life. Yeah I guess it's all a ruse.
I guess all those talks you have with your best friends are all useless because in the end they don't care how you feel or what's going on in your life, they just needed you to be their emotional pillar and keep them upright. Eventually when you try to become someone else, they suddenly find you irritating and get busy in their own life. Good for them but what about the person you just called irritating!? This is the same irritating person who listened to his friends cry over phone, made time for them even when he was overwhelmed with work, you could atleast respect that fact and be a little sensitive when you call his life a natak. But then I guess everyone isn't the same so you can't expect the same thing from everyone, everyone is entitled to their own opinion and there is very little you can do.
After hearing all these hurtful but enlightening things about myself I was reminded of a phrase from one of my favourite daily soaps "People Always Leave". I guess it was right, they do leave or it's more like "People Don't Care". I'm just tired of people not acknowledging the fact there is someone always there to be your support in all times. I'm not implying that I'm the good guy here but I'm not the bad guy either, I'm just a person who means well for everyone. There were always some people I was greatful to have in my life but now I am just happy that they told me what my worth was for them and now I can finally live out of that illusion that someone actually cared. Well you people might be getting the impression that I'm depressed or something but I'm not. I still have many people to look up to.
So I went to watch Furious 7, that's what I thought I was going to watch but it turned out to be Raftaar Ka Junoon because it was in hindi. Yeah we got screwed so it's a lesson learned, next time we or for that matter, anyone who goes to watch an english movie just make sure that the show you want to watch is in english. I'm not complaining that the dubbing was bad but it wasn't what I expected it to be.
We went to the golden temple too, we were there for about one and a half hour but the peace and satisfaction I felt there was incomparable. I'm not that much of a religious guy but sometimes you just have to admit that there was this sense of calmness there. In all it was an amazing night out. I had to do something to take my mind off the things I wrote about earlier so I figured that travelling was the best thing to do. I'm neither that much of a travelling guy, well I'm not that much of anything but I like to stir things up a bit and I like to experience as little of everything. Even though sometimes the experience is not so pleasant but it is worth it!
I don't like it when people leave but some wise man said that "Whatever happens, Happens for the best." I still hope we both realise whatever went wrong and try to mend this because people leaving isn't a good thing and I don't want them to. Whatever happens, happens and I just will be happy for my friend even if she thinks I'm faking this or whatever it is that she thinks. My situation right now is kind of a delima and this quote is perfect for the situation my life is in now!
More appropriately it sucks when you don't have a go-to person, so I just have to keep things to myself. Even though I have good friends to tell these things to but it just doesn't feel right to bother people. You know sometimes getting a text that says "Hi! How are you?" feels great but it's very rare that I get this kind of a message, I guess a go-to person always has to be the one to ask. Showing people that you care mean a lot to them because for them because then they know that there is someone, doesn't matter even if it's an acquaintance, who actually knows that you are there.
You know when you have that one person in your life that you know who will always be there, listen to whatever you have to say, never take things the wrong way and understands you. I'm not talking about a girlfriend or a boyfriend, I'm talking about your go-to person.
Everyone has one, at least I thought I had one. For me, I've always been the go-to person for my friends and frankly I'm comfortable being that guy but when your friends don't respect that you were that person for them, it really hurts. This happened to me today, turns out I was too irritating. Yeah! I guess it doesn't matter now, whatever I say is just words from a guy's mouth whose life is a 'natak', who doesn't have anything going for him in his life. Yeah I guess it's all a ruse.
I guess all those talks you have with your best friends are all useless because in the end they don't care how you feel or what's going on in your life, they just needed you to be their emotional pillar and keep them upright. Eventually when you try to become someone else, they suddenly find you irritating and get busy in their own life. Good for them but what about the person you just called irritating!? This is the same irritating person who listened to his friends cry over phone, made time for them even when he was overwhelmed with work, you could atleast respect that fact and be a little sensitive when you call his life a natak. But then I guess everyone isn't the same so you can't expect the same thing from everyone, everyone is entitled to their own opinion and there is very little you can do.
After hearing all these hurtful but enlightening things about myself I was reminded of a phrase from one of my favourite daily soaps "People Always Leave". I guess it was right, they do leave or it's more like "People Don't Care". I'm just tired of people not acknowledging the fact there is someone always there to be your support in all times. I'm not implying that I'm the good guy here but I'm not the bad guy either, I'm just a person who means well for everyone. There were always some people I was greatful to have in my life but now I am just happy that they told me what my worth was for them and now I can finally live out of that illusion that someone actually cared. Well you people might be getting the impression that I'm depressed or something but I'm not. I still have many people to look up to.
So I went to watch Furious 7, that's what I thought I was going to watch but it turned out to be Raftaar Ka Junoon because it was in hindi. Yeah we got screwed so it's a lesson learned, next time we or for that matter, anyone who goes to watch an english movie just make sure that the show you want to watch is in english. I'm not complaining that the dubbing was bad but it wasn't what I expected it to be.
I don't like it when people leave but some wise man said that "Whatever happens, Happens for the best." I still hope we both realise whatever went wrong and try to mend this because people leaving isn't a good thing and I don't want them to. Whatever happens, happens and I just will be happy for my friend even if she thinks I'm faking this or whatever it is that she thinks. My situation right now is kind of a delima and this quote is perfect for the situation my life is in now!
"IS IT ME!? AM I THE REASON PEOPLE ALWAYS LEAVE"
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